And So It Begins...

3/28/2009

And So It Begins….

About a year ago when twitter boomed, the Sunday edition of The Today Show did a segment on blogging, status updates, twitter etc… The main point of the story was that people, particularly teens, are not processing emotions in a healthy way. That having the ability to instantly tell everyone your every thought and emotion in the moment it occurs is not necessarily a positive thing. When we don’t take the time to think about or process our feelings, if even for just one minute, we never actually deal with or accept and take ownership of these strong emotions. Being a youth leader of high school students at the time I noticed that maybe this was somewhat true; noticing that these teens didn’t know how to handle strong feelings without having an outburst (much like a toddler). Now, who’s to say this is because of online networking? Perhaps it is poor parenting, perhaps there are too many soap- opera -like television shows, maybe being ‘Emo’ has become so much more than a fashion trend. Or could it be that maybe, just maybe that’s the way teens are? Teens after all are just larger children trying to learn and process and figure out whom they are. I’m almost officially in my mid-twenties, and I am still trying to do the same thing. In fact, I think being twenty is harder than being 16. You never really stop trying to find your way, and figure out “who am I?” We change constantly; we deal with strong emotions and the hard facts of life every single day. Maybe these so called social networks are just a new way to deal. Because of this, and many other forms of media, society has morphed into something completely different from what it was. Nearly nothing is taboo anymore. And, is that such a bad thing? I feel neither here nor there about it, but I have noticed that people tend to sweep dirty little secrets under the rug a lot less. When our downfalls are more acceptable, I think it’s easier to admit to them. Who knows really! I am getting a little off subject. As my mother says, my generation is far lazier, more immature, and less responsible than hers. Now I sit here thinking the same thing about the generation behind me. I think that’s just what you say when you start to mature ( get old) and you forget what it’s like to be that age and how hard it is to pave your path.

With all that said, I am here doing my best to process everything; to deal with life and the path I am paving, one brick at a time. I think bricks are a lot nicer looking than pavement, and when have I ever chosen to do things the easy way? So I sit here thinking about who I am, where I am, and what I want this blog to be about if anything specific. Today I feel that there are a lot, I mean A LOT of good things in life and happy-little-moments that I over look. I have always struggled with being bogged down by the few nasty-little-moments in life and often fail to be uplifted by the abundance of good. As of now I don’t want this to be about my trip to the mall, my bad day at work, or the fight Jeromy and I did or did not get into (and no, for the record we are not fighting that was just an example). What I would like to share here is the good things that happen every day. It could be a new recipe, a lame joke, a fun night with my friends, a prayer, or anything else that is positive. And should it be a bad day to find the silver lining. I had been trying to document these moments in a written journal. It’s not going so well, but with the ability to not process my emotions thanks to the internet, I can sit here and type, and share with you all the things I am supposedly choosing not to deal with. More so though, I believe that when you share your feelings, you feel better. And when someone else knows what’s up, you are held more accountable. Maybe I should do this over a cup of coffee with my best pals. Honestly though, that’s not going to happen on a weekly basis considering they are mostly out of state. This is the best way to share when you can’t make face time. Maybe I should just admit to the truth that Jen wanted to read a new blog and I thought “why the hell not,” and am now just trying to justify creating a blog ;) So here goes something, maybe nothing, I am jumping on the blogging bandwagon.